Running the Race
At the beginning of a race, we are filled with inspiration and motivation to finish the race well. We know how long the race is, where the track leads, how to pace ourselves throughout the race, etc., and we start off with a determination to run well after all our hard preparations. Yet, all this inspiration can disappear when we are in the thick of the race. Halfway through it can be easy to forget why we are running or to where we are running because of the pain we experience along the way. Every step only adds more pain to our aching body, and we keep going mostly because of the momentum of our motion that pushes us forward.
I have recently taken up running again as a way to exercise and have once again experienced this soul-sucking despair that can plague one in the middle of a workout. While in the middle of a 3 mile run, all I want to do is stop and walk home, especially if I just had a long day of work. Sometimes, I get this same feeling in the middle of a work day. A headache besets me, I don’t know how to solve the problems placed in front of me, and I have to fight to keep prayer in my daily life. I forget why I am working and to Whom I am walking towards in my life. It’s almost as if a cloud darkens my soul and I lose sight of the Love that is beckoning me on to finish the race, to love in every single moment. I must constantly remind myself that it is Love which moves me towards Love. I must learn to surrender to the challenges of my day so that Love may work through my weakness to give glory to Himself. And then, I see the finish line of Heaven in the distance and am inspired to once again pick up my cross and run after Christ.
“I charge you in the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who will judge the living and the dead, and by his appearing and his kingly power: proclaim the word; be persistent whether it is convenient or inconvenient; convince, reprimand, encourage through all patience and teaching. For the time will come when people will not tolerate sound doctrine but, following their own desires and insatiable curiosity, will accumulate teachers and will stop listening to the truth and will be diverted to myths. But you, be self-possessed in all circumstances; put up with hardship; perform the work of an evangelist; fulfill your ministry.
For I am already being poured out like a libation, and the time of my departure is at hand. I have competed well; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith. From now on the crown of righteousness awaits me, which the Lord, the just judge, will award to me on that day, and not only to me, but to all who have longed for his appearance.”
2 Timothy 4:1-9
Also, shoutout to the Saint Vincent’s community! I had a great time playing soccer with you all on Sunday afternoon and was definitely reminded that I need to get back into shape running-wise!